Unhappy Anniversary?

So, I'm having some mixed feelings...

Before I stayed home with our last baby, I worked for Nordstrom for about 4 years. I went back to work a sale last year and haven't gone back since. Today is the first day of their Anniversary Sale and I haven't missed working one since 2002.

I am really quite happy to be at home with the kids, especially during summer, but I am feeling a loss, since today I would have been shopping for all the fun things I would buy for everyone. I really miss my discount. lol I started to feel the difference 2 days ago when I realized that I "should" be there. I miss all the moms and kids I would assist too (I worked in Children's Shoes), I had a pretty good customer base. However, I don't miss working for that company. Along with the discount, I would have been working a 12 hour day with about 4 hours of sleep because we'd set up the night before and not get out until around 1am. They expect that their employees have no life outside of work and be on their beck and call. Sometimes it actually happens that way. There are some people working there since they were about 18 (the age you have to be to work there) and they're now over 40! No family, no life, non-interesting people with a high level of immaturity. I can think of a few straight off the top off of the top of my head...Boy, they were weird! hahaha

I know the trade off is a good one but I guess I do miss having my own thing to do outside of the house, when I know I can make a difference in some one's day that has nothing to do with home.